Sunday, June 01, 2014

I'm Going on an Adventure!





“If I take one more step, I’ll be the farthest from home that I’ve ever been…”


With all due respect to the characters of Bilbo Baggins and Samwise Gamgee, I could not help but keep the thought of J.R.R. Tolkien’s Hobbiton and Middle-earth close to mind as I set out with five delightful friends on a journey that, while expertly mapped out by Foot Trails, took me on an adventure that I had not possibly fathomed in its entirety.


First a little back-story:

Planning in earnest for this trip began about a year ago, but my journey started much farther back now that I think back on it.  I have always struggled to have a healthy body, and never considered myself to be athletic growing up.  I suppose there are a myriad of reasons for that, but I would guess the competitive nature of sports kept me from feeling like I was “good” at being active in any of its forms.  I’ve discovered as I’ve grown older that I am competitive with myself, but not with others.  That’s posed some issues for me as I’ve worked at finding the physical activity that suited me best.  I try to keep up with those ahead of me.  Sometimes that’s a good thing, and very motivating.  Sometimes that’s not so great, and I end up overworking my body to the point that I don’t want to try it again and give it up (Um… hello… yoga anyone?).  This has all been part of the learning curve for me, and it was a revelation when I figured out that it was hampering my success!


But I’m getting ahead of myself…

Those who know me well, know that I’m an ovarian cancer survivor – ten years!  While it was a difficult time, and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone or want to go through it again, it did have some positive outcomes -- the greatest of which is that I want to be more than a survivor.  I want to thrive, not just survive!


Yet alas… not only did I gain all the weight back that I lost through chemo, I gained more.  I found I was “rewarding” myself for defeating cancer a little too much with food – after all I’d spent nearly nine months not eating much of anything, I was making up for lost time.  And in the meantime chemo slowed down my already leisurely activity to a standstill.  I’ve had a long uphill climb (more about hills later!)…


Fast-forward a few years and I’d really had enough of feeling sluggish and bloated.  I’ve talked with my doctor about low thyroid and a slow metabolism to no avail.  At this point I really don’t know if that’s an issue or not – the current tests for thyroid say not, but I’m still dubious.  I DO know that I have a very slow metabolism (testing does bear me out here), but it seems the only way to get it to work more efficiently is to be physically active.


There was nothing for it – I had to learn to be an athlete.


Several years ago, my workplace started a wellness program and eventually I happened upon their weight-management program.  I can go in every week to weigh-in and talk with a trained professional about my fitness and nutrition goals.  I’m an over-thinker and I’ve resisted a lot of weight-loss programs over the years, but little by little, bit by bit I’ve started to make headway – with less whining about the unfairness of it all, and more proactive working at my goals.  Twenty pounds lost so far (with a lot more to go, alas!) – it was a start.


Then the hiking trip opportunity arose, and suddenly I knew THIS was it.  This is what I’ve been waiting for to kick my physical activity to the next level.  Once I committed to the trip, I knew I had to work hard not to let my friends down once we hit the road.  I didn’t want to be the one at the end of the line holding everyone up (okay, it happened that I still did this from time to time but it usually gave everyone else a short break while I caught up!), nor did I ever want to give up when the road got difficult.


And do you know what?  Despite how long our hike was, or how challenging walking up a steep hill was, I NEVER felt like giving up!  I just wanted to catch my breath – even my knees felt good!  This ended up being a very personal journey for me, and like Frodo I’ve come back changed in ways that I’m not even sure I’m cognizant of, which is why I’ve been slow to tell everyone about it.  (Though I hope they are positive changes!)


That said… here I go!

SO… back to Bilbo & Sam… both “adventure” and Sam’s quote (from the film Fellowship of the Ring) were said multiple times throughout our trip, probably at least once a day.  Traveling to a new place is always exciting to me, and I’m always eager to go on my next trip.  Yet, hiking… physically putting one foot in front of the other on foreign soil is an amazing way to experience a place.  Whether it’s running through an entire field of lovely little buttercups or happening upon a herd of curious cows, dodging the ubiquitous stinging nettles or climbing a hillfort to the summit where King Arthur “may” have built Camelot, it’s a tangible moment in time where I was present body, mind and spirit.  So, yes… when I took one more step, I was indeed farther from home than I’d ever been!  (More about “adventures” in a bit!)


My portion of the trip started late in the afternoon on May 13th.  Mom & Dad drove me to the airport and I breezed surprisingly smoothly through check-in and security.  The flight took off and landed pretty close to on time in Atlanta, and I met up with Liz & Elaine.  Oh my gosh, how excited were we??  We had a little snack then headed to our gate and boarded on time… but alas, the antennae on our plane needed to be replaced, so we took off about an hour late.  Meanwhile Laura & Cathy left from Boston and Sheri would leave from Seattle.


Our New England gals got in much earlier than we did and headed for the hotel, but we were able to meet up with Sheri at Heathrow and all took the shuttle to Paddington Station.  As this was a hiking trip, we began right away by walking from there to our hotel rather than spending money on a cab.  It was only about a mile away and it was a sunny afternoon (and all our luggage had wheels!).  Finally we were all met at the London House Hotel and paired off in twos for our first night’s stay.  I roomed with Sheri and we settled into our small but nice room on Floor -1 (ie: the basement level).  Laura and Cathy had already done some scouting so we knew where to find coffee and breakfast in the a.m.!  Once we freshened up we decided to head out to look for a pub for dinner and quickly found The Bayswater Pub, which suited just fine.  The food was good and the ale refreshing!  To walk off our meal we continued on to Kensington Gardens and spent a good hour (at least?) roaming its wide avenues and taking in its lovely scenery.  At the far end of the park we saw QueenVictoria’s memorial to Prince Albert, as well as the Royal Albert Hall across the street.  In reading about the monument later I discovered that Prince Albert has only been re-gilded in the past twenty or so years, as he was painted black during WWII to keep from being an obvious target from the air.  On our way back we stopped at a Tesco and a Sainsbury for a late evening snack supplies, and we sat around gabbing and catching up until it was time to head to bed. [Mileage for the day: 2.72 miles on Tuesday + 5.38 miles on Wednesday]


The next morning we all trooped down the street to Pret รก Manger for coffee, croissants and other breakfast items and brought them back to the hotel lobby to map out our one full day in London.  First stop… Westminster Abbey!  I think most of us had been here before (this was Elaine’s first time in Europe, I think, so all was new to her!), but we all felt like we needed to revisit this storied church so steeped in history.  I especially wanted to make my “pilgrimage” to Henry V’s grave – I don’t know what it is about him that I feel such an affinity for, but I was glad to be able to visit his tomb again, Shakespeare’s immortal words ringing in my mind: We few… we happy few… we band of brothers…  I also was looking for the memorial to Jane Austen, but I think workers had it covered as they were updating lighting fixtures in that area.  Once through we met up to decide our next course of action.  Several of us were interested in seeing Shakespeare’s Globe Theatre, and our docent Christopher urged us to walk to it as it wasn’t too far away.  I think Brits’ idea of close by is different than ours as they are already predisposed to walking!  Regardless… we were there to walk, so we walked!


Sheri & Laura headed to the London Eye as the rest of us made our leisurely way along the Thames toward Millennium Bridge and the new Globe.  It was a gorgeously sunny day, not too hot and perfect for being out and about the city, as the many runners we dodged along our route certainly attested to – one has to wonder if there would have been quite so many out on a typical English grey day?  As we crossed the Millennium Bridge we glimpsed St. Paul’s Cathedral while our intended destination gleamed ahead of us, looking all freshly whitewashed!  Shakespeare’s Globe Theatre was built on the site (or nearly so) of the old Globe, which had been gone several centuries.  Sam Wanamaker, actor and director, spearheaded the project in the late 1990s canvassing academics and scholars of Shakespearean history to design an approximation of what the old Globe may have been like.  According to our guide, Callum, (who we had a bit of a crush on… ah… actors!) while it looks like what we 21st century people believe a Tudor-era theatre should look like, it was probably somewhat different.  But then everyone now would say, “That couldn’t possibly be what it looked like – it’s not Tudor!”  Even now, it’s all a representation just like a set on stage!  While we were there we had an opportunity to watch about 15-20 minutes of rehearsal of Antony and Cleopatra. I was in theatre-geek heaven!  When our tour was over it was time to head back to the hotel to freshen up – afternoon tea awaited us at The Orangery at Kensington Palace!  I can’t speak for any of the other ladies, but I felt quite elegant sitting in the bright, elegant tea room sipping my lemon-ginger tea and nibbling on cucumber-mint sandwiches and currant scones… delightful!


Now here is where the “adventure” first comes in!  After tea we were booked to see the Ceremony of the Keys at the Tower of London.  We needed to be at the Tower by 9:30pm – sharp!  If we were late, we would miss out.  We figured we needed to leave the hotel no later than 8:30pm to take the Tube back down the Thames to the Tower.  We had split up as we left The Orangery, but miraculously we all met in the lobby of the hotel at 8:35pm and hurried down the street to the station.  When we checked the map to see which train we needed to be on, our stop was on both the inbound and outbound trains!  Which way to go??  We made our decision… and of course, you’ve guessed that we chose the wrong one!  A gentleman in our car overheard us talking and quickly informed us we were going the wrong way, so we got off as soon as we could and tried a different one – this one was going in the right direction, but was taking the long way around… would we get there in time??  Literally running out the station to the Tower we headed pell-mell toward the gate, but it was 9:30pm by this time… and again, we took the wrong route – the gate was the other way!  We finally gave up as we realized even when we found the gate we would be too late.  Disappointed, but determined to make the best of a lovely evening we caught our collective breaths and walked down the Tower Bridge, which was all lit up to show off its glory.  Along the way we discovered the moon was full that night, and we watched its progress along the night sky as we strolled back over the Thames toward the Tube.  Before we went down to the platform we walked around the Tower the other way and did some exploring along the Thames, finding a dock (we were looking for a place to stop for a drink!).  Finding a young woman at the end with her briefcase and trenchcoat we discovered she was waiting for the ferry, which is part of the Tube system – and our day passes got us onboard and partially back towards our hotel.  Fancy that, a full moon and a river cruise along the Thames!  We decided that despite our disappointment at missing the ceremony, the evening turned out even better than we’d planned.  I’m paraphrasing Sheri here, who said, “An adventure is just a stressful situation that turns out all right in the end!”  (This was only the first of several such escapades!) [Mileage for the day: 10.66 miles – rather auspicious!]


The next morning, we again walked down the street to get our breakfast and returned to await our ride to Wiltshire!  By lunchtime we were settled at a lovely country inn/pub called The Compasses Inn in Lower Chicksgrove (kind of a perfect name for our group!) for our first few days of actual hiking.  With the help of the young women on staff (I think Izzy was the name of one?) we wrestled our luggage up the stairs into our rooms.  This time I was sharing with Elaine, and we loved our pretty feminine room with the great view of the front lawn!  Lunch and ale were first on our minds, and we quickly went back down to the pub to order our meal and head out to the back garden.  I should mention that I’m not big on ale, but I do love hard cider and they had a lovely local one to go with my bacon & brie baguette.  We spent an hour or so out there soaking up our first real glimpse of the English countryside and waiting for our box from Foot Trails with our maps and hiking directions – it was supposed to be waiting for us at the inn, but hadn’t arrived yet!  Adventure #2!  That day’s planned hike was just a short one, so we decided to go ourselves and walk around to find a public footpath (which are everywhere!).  We crossed a field and headed down a wooded path to find a blanket of bluebells along the way.  We also found mud… well I did anyway – I was the first one “mudded!”  While we were out, Liz was able to talk with Alison from Foot Trails about our missing box, and she assured us she would get one to us that night.  As we gathered in the pub for dinner, David arrived with it and we had a thorough chat with him about our hikes and all the other instructions and arrangements.  So again, it turned out for the better!  (And the box arrived the next day, of course, in the post!)  We had another wonderful meal and turned in early, as the next day would be a big day! [Mileage: 4.06 miles]


At this point I probably won’t go through each day’s hike in its entirety, but this first one was particularly important for me… it was the long one… the one I’d been training for all this time!  It was supposed to be 11.5 miles (or thereabouts), but it turned out quite a bit longer!  We were blessed our entire 10 days with the most beautiful sunny weather, and this first hiking day was no different.  It was so temperate, in fact, that I only wore a tank top with my jeans (with plenty of sunscreen, thanks to Elaine, since I forgot mine!) – no jacket or layering needed!  Our hike started out with us walking into the town of Tisbury, and early on I discovered my nemesis for the day – hills!  Now, I suspected all along that there would be hills, and knew I needed to work on this in particular while I was training… but I really had no concept of how many I would encounter.  Pavement, fields, woods… all terrains had them at some point, and each one that day I’m afraid daunted me.  As I mentioned above, I don’t like to hold anyone up and have to wait for me.  I tried not to be a baby about them, but I’m afraid I cursed them quite a bit initially.  Eventually though I would just look at it, sigh and soldier on.  Elaine stayed back with me a lot of time, insisting she liked my pace!  But enough about the hills – they were what they were.  I just stopped when I needed to breathe then continued on.  This day was one where we encountered a herd of cows in a field that were more curious about us than we were about them (though we were curious enough!).  They followed us across the field (waiting for a snack, we think) to the gate – we had to be very careful not to let them out!  Along with the hills there were many stiles this day, and those I actually enjoyed, though stinging nettles lurked – and so did barbed wire.  Sheri scraped her knee badly over one, but fortunately we all had first aid supplies in our packs, and the wound was quickly cleaned up with a bandaged applied (which lasted long enough to stop the blood, but soon fell off afterwards with all the walking and climbing).  This was also the day of Adventure #3!  We had been hiking all morning, and were finally approaching the town where a pub was suggested we stop for lunch.  We were all ready for a break and in need of more water, but when we arrived the pub was closed due to a private event!  Nor was there another place to eat in the village.  One of the staff gave us rather vague directions that there was another pub up the road, so we headed back the way we came in search of sustenance and rest.  We walked quite awhile with no sign of a pub or town in sight.  We decided to wait on the side of the road while Liz & Sheri walked a little farther to see if it might be up ahead.  They soon came back without any luck, so we sat in the hedgerows and pulled out what snacks we had in our packs for a meager lunch.  I had put buttered toast from breakfast in my bag, and Liz and I shared that along with a granola bar and what water I had left.  Once refreshed we got back to our feet and resumed our way to Wardour Castle.  I’m not sure we would consider our roadside snack better than having lunch at the pub, but it was still a bit of an adventure nonetheless.  The castle was still some distance away, but we made it and quickly descended upon the gift/snack shop for cold water (and a diet Coke for me – after the water, of course!) and some snacks along with our tickets to enter the castle.  We sat out on a bench for a few minutes to catch our breath then went in to explore the ruined castle.  I couldn’t help but think of Ann Radcliff’s gothic classic The Mystery of Udolpho upon seeing the ruin – the sky had clouded over by the time we arrived and Wardour had somewhat of a spooky look to it.  Yet, it seemed entirely wholesome once inside – no creepy or ghostly encounters!  I think we spent about an hour going through it.  At last it was time to get back on the road.  There was some discussion about calling for a taxi at this point, as we still had several miles to go to get back to the inn.  I was close to giving in, but I realized that I had spent a whole year training for this walk in particular, there was no way I wanted to stop short of my goal!  We all took one last bathroom break, drank more water and went forth.  The sun came back out on our trek back, and those last miles were tiring.  I’d been checking my Fitbit all along the way, and we were already well past our 11.5 miles, but we were getting close.  It was then I realized just what I was accomplishing with my friends… ten years ago I could never have realized I would be able to walk this far, and it was taking all my self-control not to burst into tears as we recognized the road up (yes, up – damn those hills!) to the inn.  When we reached that front lawn I gave in, SO happy to have achieved this goal!  I may not be an Olympic-quality athlete, but I did something requiring an athleticism that I didn’t know I had in me until that day – we rejoiced with a big hug and kisses all around!  Water, stretches, a hearty dinner and early bedtime, in that order.  That was just day one!  [Mileage: 14.85 miles]


The next day’s hike was titled The Stonemason’s Trail, and we walked past quarries and could see chalk carvings in the distant hillside.  Huzzah!  The suggested pub was open this day – The BlackDog – which had a fun gothic look to the dรฉcor in the dining room.  I should mention that I had been having some difficulty with my special bank card not working anywhere, which did not get resolved until we moved on to our next inn.  This was decidedly NOT an adventure!  Fortunately I did have some credit cards with me too, and temporary help from my friends.  [Mileage: 9.64 miles]


We said good-bye to Alan, Izzy and The Compasses Inn after breakfast and settling our bills.  Andy came to pick us up in the van to take us to our next destination with a side-trip to Stonehenge.  I am still processing my day there – it’s a place I’ve wanted to see for such a long time, and it did not disappoint!  Again, another beautiful, sunny day – though windy – but not cold in the least.  Every angle of the sacred stones is incredible.  The English Heritage had just opened their new visitors’ center this past March and are still in the process of re-landscaping the old car park next to the site.  I think it’s easy to see that it will show Stonehenge to an even better advantage, though visitors still won’t be able to get close enough to touch the stones.  Still, the path that takes one around starts somewhat far away, but by the time the circuit is complete I was really quite close.  On our way back to the visitors’ center the six of us ate an entire pint of fresh strawberries that Laura had bought right there at the pick-up/drop-off point.  (Elaine also bought some – cherries too – that we saved for breakfast another day)  This is how strawberries are supposed to taste!  Before loading up in the van again, we grabbed some lunch to eat on the drive into Somerset.


The Queen’s Arms in Corton Denham is quite lovely and the staff was so accommodating and friendly.  While The Compasses Inn was very comfortable and had quite a local flavor to it, The Queen’s Arms (while equally comfortable and homey) seemed more like a destination inn (if that makes sense?).  There are locals certainly, but I felt like there were more visitors to the area here.  Laura and I shared the room here, and we ended up with the deep lavender soaking tub in our bathroom, which I made sure to take advantage of!  We mostly rested that afternoon (though Elaine & Sheri had their own adventure doing an abbreviated Ghost Tales hike), and I got my bank card situation straightened out at last!  Dinner was delicious – I had Buttermilk Chicken and American Fries (skinny fries).  So why did I go all the way to Somerset, England to eat fried chicken, you ask?  I considered that, honestly… but I wanted to see their interpretation of this singularly “American” dish.  It ended up not being anything like KFC or what we know as southern fried chicken.  It was more like barbequed chicken, and there was just the faintest hint of curry.  The English do love their curry!  [Mileage: 2.44 miles]


You might have noticed that I have not mentioned one bland or boring meal so far.  In fact, none were.  Every meal I had was delicious and prepared like a five-star-celebrity-chef specialty.  If anyone tells you the food in England is bad, they haven’t eaten there in awhile!  In particular, I think these inns and B&Bs are pulling out all the stops for their guests.  By the way, never pass up an opportunity to try a sticky toffee pudding – anywhere!


Our first hike in Somerset was following in the steps of King Arthur up to Cadbury Castle, which is actually a hillfort – no actual castle rests at the top, but there was probably some sort of fortification at various times.  It is purported to be where Arthur built Camelot, so naturally I was eager to get to the top (the hills were much gentler here – no straight, steep inclines!).  We also had a tag-a-long this day.  Not fifteen minutes after we left the inn, we encountered a springy, sturdy terrier mid-field.  All of us being “dog-people” we stopped to scratch her ears and make over her, but once we started to move on she bounded ahead of us, almost as if to lead the way.  We tried to get her to head home, but she was determined to stick with us, and did most of the day.  We even took her into the pub at lunchtime (the appropriately named The Camelot Inn) because there was concern that she might not know how to get back home.  After lunch we checked out another church where Arthur & his knights were supposed to have drunk from the spring, and we untied her there (Elaine had a rope to use as a leash), and that was the last we saw of her.  I kept thinking she must be our spirit guide for the day as she would run ahead, sniffing the ground for all the good smells, but never got so far ahead that she couldn’t see us.  She would just stop and wait for us to catch up, then go on ahead again.  Since she was a terrier of some sort, we ended up calling her “Toto.”  We did find out later from the inn staff that she was a local farm dog, and that she was used to ranging far and wide.  She got home safe and sound before us, and we were all relieved!  Standing on the summit of Cadbury hillfort was an amazing feeling – you can see for miles in all directions!  Sheri took off her boots to walk in the grass, and I knelt to run my fingers through it and feel the earth beneath.  There was something very spiritual about the place for sure!  That evening we had dinner with Cathy’s cousin and her husband who she hadn’t seen in many years – they were a delightful couple and we enjoyed the conversation, learning about their volunteer work after the flooding the area had experienced the past several years during the winter and early spring.  [Mileage: 10.09 miles]


Our last hike to the town of Sherborne was supposed to be relatively short.  We were to walk into town, have some lunch then shop, and a taxi would bring us back to the inn.  This was adventure #4!  Somewhere in the instructions it should have said go this way for the short hike or go this other way for the long hike… we took the long hike!  Eventually we did make it into town, but well after noon – fortunately unlike the previous country pubs we’d encountered, this one did not close between 2pm and 6pm.  We had a leisurely lunch (taking off our boots – heaven!) and regrouping before heading over to the beautiful SherborneAbbey, which was spared destruction when Henry VIII closed all the monasteries as the town purchased the abbey from the Crown to be their local church.  The fan vaulting is particularly stunning, and some of the stained glass is extraordinary.  I took many pictures here!  After the abbey we walked up the street to window shop – as all the shops were closed or closing by this time.  We all met at the Sainsbury market that we spied on our way in and gathered up some cheese and bread and fruit to eat since none of us were particularly hungry for dinner after our late lunch.  A taxi blessedly did come to take us back to the inn – we were quite footsore by this time!  Everyone got cleaned up and met in Laura's & my room to relax and gab and snack.  We were to head back to London the next day.  [Mileage: 11.04 miles]


We asked the van to pick us up at 1pm instead of noon as originally planned so Laura, Elaine and Sheri could taxi back to Sherborne for some shopping since we’d missed out the day before and to check out Sherborne Castle (built by Sir Walter Raleigh), which we only saw from afar.  They all brought their packed suitcases to our room since we would check out before they got back.  Then we had to move it all down to the office once we settled up our portion of the bills.  Liz, Cathy and I walked up to the little village church then hung out in the pub area until the others returned and it was time to leave.  This was our only real day of rain, and I put on my jacket for the first time in ten days!  The ride back from Somerset was a bit longer than the one out to Wiltshire, and we were mostly quiet – though our driver this day was quite friendly and entertaining.  He deposited us at the Arora Hotel near Heathrow a little bit before dinner time.  Cathy & I shared the room this time.  Before dinner we headed to the hotel’s computers to check in for our flights and print our boarding passes.  Dinner was at the hotel’s cafรฉ – again good food, though I wouldn’t say it was on par with either of the inns’ chefs.  We spent about an hour back in our room going over the trip and eating up the last of the food we bought in Sherborne, then everyone headed to bed as we needed to catch the shuttle to Heathrow bright and early! [Mileage: 2.62 miles]


The trip home was long, but not too tedious – until I hit Logan Airport in Boston.  I (sort of) traveled back with Laura & Cathy (same flight, but other side of the plane – we waved occasionally.  Alas, the flight was full and getting my seat changed was not really possible), and after we three went through border security and then customs (fairly snappily, all things considered) we eventually had to part ways.  I had to go to a different terminal, and had plenty of time though it was kind of far to walk, but I’d been walking so what was a ten minute stroll through the airport?  All would have been fine except when I got to the new terminal I couldn’t find a way to get to my gate without going through security again!  Grrr!  And really that would’ve been okay too until I realized that I still had half a bottle of diet Coke in my bag going through the scanner.  Rats!  Oh well… it didn’t really delay me, but I was annoyed at myself for not ditching it when I thought about it on the plane.  Mom & Dad were in the cell phone lot waiting to pick me up (though I had to call because text messaging wasn’t working, which took several days to figure out), and we detoured to Claddagh for dinner.  One last “pub” meal!  I was very glad to see my pup, Nildรซ when I got home, and sleeping in my own bed was heaven on earth![Mileage: 3.22 miles]


All in all, it was a trip of a lifetime.  I hope I may have other opportunities to hike in new and different places, but I’ll never have my first time hiking again, especially in a place so near and dear to my heart.  There is something so comforting and familiar about the countryside of England.  I don’t know that I would want to move there at this stage of my life, but I certainly would enjoy living somewhere like it with the lifestyle to go along with it.  For those wondering… 76.67 miles walked during the entire trip!


One other phrase also went through my head constantly, and on our last night in London I Googled it to share with everyone:


OH, to be in England now that April’s there
And whoever wakes in England sees, some morning, unaware,
That the lowest boughs and the brushwood sheaf
Round the elm-tree bole are in tiny leaf,
While the chaffinch sings on the orchard bough
In England—now!


II
And after April, when May follows
And the white-throat builds, and all the swallows!
Hark, where my blossom’d pear-tree in the hedge
Leans to the field and scatters on the clover
Blossoms and dewdrops—at the bent spray’s edge—
That ’s the wise thrush: he sings each song twice over
Lest you should think he never could re-capture
The first fine careless rapture!
And, though the fields look rough with hoary dew,
All will be gay when noontide wakes anew
The buttercups, the little children’s dower,
Far brighter than this gaudy melon-flower!




Home Thoughts From Abroad
Robert Browning


Thursday, March 06, 2014

Having Light We Pass It On To Others

Another year has passed.  A busy year, and somewhat stressful as predicted. Yet, I'm persevering, and I'm doing so with gratitude.

It would be so easy sometimes to give in to the stress, to be angry or depressed or overwhelmed.  I've been there in the past, but I made a decision several years ago - honestly, it was after I finished chemo - that I didn't want to live my life like that.  I had been given a gift, a chance to make positive changes in my life.  I'm still working on that - it's not easy by any means.  However, I'm finding it worth the effort.  Living life expressing gratitude rather than discontent has made all the difference in the world.

Lent has begun today, and I'm committed to reading more scriptural texts and writing about them when something speaks to me.  I've done this in the past, but my spirituality has been - if not exactly shallow - not completely connected to my faith either.  I'm hoping to rectify that during these next 40 days.

I'm using a couple of different resource materials, and a passage in a Lenten booklet by Sacred Space gave me food for thought today:

Your light will rise in the darkness. (Isaiah 58:10)

If you remove the yoke from among you, the pointing of the finger, the speaking of evil, if you offer your food to the hungry and satisfy the needs of the afflicted, then your light shall rise in the darkness and your gloom be like a noonday. (Isaiah 58:9-10)

You are the light of the world. (Matthew 5:14)

The symbolism of light touches me deeply (in fact, I believe I've written about it here in the past).  For me light means goodness, wisdom and a holiness that is Christ-centered.  It is a privilege to reflect that light "into the dark places of the world."  That seems like a good place to start this year as I journey toward Easter and Christ's Resurrection.

Sunday, January 13, 2013

Create In Me...

It's been far too long since my last blog post, but life tends to get in the way from time to time... or rather, I let it get in the way.  I also still had two more days to report on my Sojourn in the Shire, but it's been long enough that I couldn't possibly do justice to describing all the wonderful things that took place on those final days.  We're now looking forward to the next one in 2014, and I have every hope of attending and being better at writing up my travelog!

Though I admit that it is a flimsy excuse, the past two years in particular have been busy-stressful at work.  Not necessarily in a negative way, just a lot of time and energy spent on work and less of either on those things I love best.

This year has given all of us at work a little time to breathe from time to time, but the next year will soon take on a life of its own and I'm trying my very best to prepare ahead of time those aspects of my life that I have control over so that I'm not overwhelmed.  We'll see how that works out..

Since Christmas I've been able to find the inspiration to pick up on my writing, not just here but on my latest novel-in-progress.  I also worked very hard on a grant for myself that I hope may take me down the road to my next adventure.  I won't hear about it until spring, so I need to keep working on my long-term goals in the meantime because waiting for something that may never come to pass is never a smart idea.  I still have hope that I'm in the running, but I'm realistic enough to know that with such stiff competition the odds are uncertain for now.

I also seem to be finding my way when it comes to better and healthier habits.  I still have a long way to go, but I feel good about my fitness goals - I just need to work on the nutrition part more diligently.

As for those long-term goals, they've been on the back-burner a little bit the past few weeks, but not at all forgotten.  It's time to start planning for some other positive steps... there's a small business class I want/need to take... research to do... blog on our progress on that site... we're still very much in the pre-planning stages, but I think we're ready to start taking some tentative steps forward!

January is nearly half over, but at this time of year I can't help but want spring to get here soon! The wind is howling outside and we've been deluged with rain the past several days - it's better than being stuck in the house because of two feet of snow (yes, there's been A LOT of rain) instead, but this isn't exactly tempting me outdoors either.  Thank goodness we had a warm, sunny day yesterday!


Saturday, October 22, 2011

A Sojourn in the Shire - My Adventures in Middle-earth, Part II



Thursday, September 29, 2011

Day Two: His house was perfect, whether you liked food, or sleep, or work, or story-telling, or singing, or just sitting and thinking best, or a pleasant mixture of them all. Evil things did not come into that valley…


This day was devoted to all things Elven.

I am not exactly an early riser, though once up I’m set for the day. Knowing myself well, I signed up for one of the late breakfast times and was able to rise and prepare for the day in a leisurely, peaceful fashion that I can only hope to attain at home. I breakfasted with two delightful ladies, one from Louisiana and the other from a closer distance (KY? OH? I wish I could remember…). The Village offers a morning buffet, but as I’m not fond of eggs I opted this morning for dry cereal and OJ, though the wee pumpkin muffins with butter are addictive and always a big draw!

My first order of business was to visit the “Trading Post” to check-in officially and pick up my registration bag. I also took a brief turn around the room to look at the various wares for sale and made a mental note to return on payday (thank you direct deposit!) to do a bit of shopping. I chatted with a few people along my way, and then sat down to consult the schedule – there were plenty of activities from which to choose – but as part of my intent for this time away was to rediscover my “center,” I decided to let the Spirit move me as the days unfolded. I pulled out my journal (a red one like Bilbo’s famous Red Book of Westmarch) and sat outside on a bench to begin my own tale of a journey.

I had not yet decided what I planned for the morning… maybe walk the Village, take some pictures, etc. But as I sat there, one of our panelists – Constance Wagner – saw me writing and asked, “You are coming to my writing workshop in ten minutes, aren’t you?” And, of course, I said, “Yes, I’ll be there!”

Now, it was not in my mind to do that at all. I’ve not had much success in workshops or writers’ groups. Fantasy-writing seems always to be looked down upon by “serious” writers – and Young Adult Fantasy-writing even more so (Harry Potter & Twilight notwithstanding… though they, of course, have their detractors as well, I suppose). But as I said, I was letting circumstances as they came up lead me, and I’d be less than perceptive, indeed, if I didn’t follow both Constance’s and the Spirit’s invitation. So, I gathered up my belongings and headed over to the workshop.

In her presentation, Constance led us through some guided visualizations designed to allow our creative minds to wander along the paths of her meditative words that drew inspiration from Professor Tolkien’s works. There were four exercises: some individuals wrote distinct and separate paragraphs – sometimes even actual mini-stories -- on the topics, such as the Istari or Galadriel’s Mirror, and some of us were a bit less specific to the LOTR world. For myself, I took Constance’s suggestion to tie each of the visualizations to each other, focusing on that place I go to when I need to regroup. My “happy place,” some people are wont to call it. I think, though, that most of us responded to the last exercise most readily – the one inspired by the Rohirrim. Perhaps it is because the words were more tangible and active? This is what I wrote:

But the heart of the hearth, where the fire of welcome burns brightest, that is where the stories coalesce into history. A place at the table, era upon era, the tales are spoken, then written, then imprinted on the hearts of all who listen.

All in all, an hour well-spent with an encouraging room of fellow writers – as I said, not my usual experience with such a group – but then with this group of people I should’ve had more faith in them. Perhaps it will give me more encouragement to seek out another local writers’ group…

By this time, lunch was being distributed down in the Dancing/Prancing Pony, so I went to get mine and started back to I-don’t-know-where… perhaps my room at that point. The riverboat cruise was scheduled for after lunch and I wanted to drop some extra items off, eat and then head to the boat landing.

But again, circumstances intervened… along the way, I met with the delightful Phyllis and Ritchey on my way back and spent some quality time under the shade of a lovely tree chatting with them and catching up. So as the time approached to make for the boat before it set sail (does a riverboat set sail?) I gave up stopping at my room and detoured to my car instead. This was only one of two times I drove during my stay – the boat landing, while quite near the Village, would be quite a hike (and some DID hike down there – maybe next time for me…).

It was a beautiful, sunny afternoon – warm for late September, but a perfect day to be out on the water. This would be my third trip down the Kentucky River – or the Anduin, as it was called during our stay; and though I’d heard about and seen the River before, what mattered most to me was just being on the boat – I never pass up an opportunity to climb aboard! So, I reveled in the cruise, giving half an ear to our captain’s banter, but dividing the larger share of my attention between my lunch, the sights along the river and observing the interesting fellowship aboard. Again, another hour well-spent!

Late afternoon I made my way back over to the west side of the Village for Elven Choir practice. Thanks to Galadriel and Legolas we rehearsed three Elven chorales: two from Howard Shore’s score of the films and one from the musical. We only had an hour to go through them and we all seemed to settle into The Passing of the Grey Elves the best, so it was decided the choir would just sing that piece (Galadriel & Legolas sang Saruman from the musical as a duet). I thought I would have plenty of time to go back to my room and dress for the evening in Elven garb, but it was decided to meet back an hour later to go through the music again – so it was a bit of a rush job, but I made it back in plenty of time, and even managed not to be out of breath!

Upon walking into the Meadow View Barn again, the transformation from the night before was magical! The interesting rafters and sunset through the slatted walls were the same, but added to it were majestic columns and gauzy fabric billowing in the slight evening breeze. Harp music wafted gently as we ate another delicious meal among the beautiful and ageless Eldar and their guests.

This is the night where those who want to show off their skills for creating their LOTR garb are displayed to greatest effect. The costume pageant is always a much-anticipated part of the evening, and those who participated did not disappoint. To be clear, sewing is not necessarily a requisite of great costuming… there are also leather-workers, metal-workers, jewelers, make-up artists and even those who just have an innate knack for finding and putting together “off-the-rack” clothing and accessories in amazingly authentic-looking garb. Well done to one and all! I, myself, did not participate as my gown was one I’ve used for some time. Perhaps at the next one (Oh, crap!) I’ll have the means to create a new one worthy of modeling for the Court of Imladris!

As I mentioned earlier, the Elven Choir also performed for Lord Elrond and Lady Celebrian and the other worthies in the chamber this evening as part of The Hall of Fire. I’ve been singing with my parish choir for many years, so it’s always a great challenge to sing with other people one hasn’t grown accustomed to performing with on a regular basis. There are so many gifted individuals at this gathering – it really keeps an elfmaid on her toes!

Not only did we have more singing and music from a host of talented musicians (including Marc, Samantha & now Jamie), but there was also Constance's poetry, re-enactments of Galadriel’s Prologue and Mirror speeches from FOTR, as well as a spoof of the Council of Elrond. I was particularly taken with artist Jef Murray’s chanting of Tolkien’s literary song, “Oh Elbereth!” and poem “Earendil the Mariner.” I love that Tolkien’s words married with Gregorian chant so well. It’s well-known that the Professor was a devout Catholic, so this combination seems eminently appropriate. It also resonates with this Catholic girl pretty well too.

So, with those images echoing in my mind I wended back toward the eastern corner of the Shire to write, to sleep to, dream…

A Sojourn in the Shire: My Adventures in Middle-earth - Part I



The following is a bit of a travelog describing my week at a Lord of the Rings gathering in Harrodsburg, KY called A Long Expected Party (ALEP) - There and Back Again (TABA) that took place Wednesday, September 28th through Sunday, October 1st, 2011.



Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Day One: You step into the Road, and if you don’t keep your feet, there is no knowing where you might be swept off to…


It’s fortunate for me that the Road to “The Shire” (ie: Shaker Village at Pleasant Hill, KY) is no great distance. It’s an easy, even scenic, drive – and while I was eager to arrive and immerse myself in the land of Middle-earth, I had no wish to rush through the experience. I spent the morning at home finishing up a few small loads of laundry, checking in online with friends and family I might not have regular contact with while I was gone and, of course, packing. Being able to drive I had the luxury of taking as much time as I wanted or needed, and I discovered that these few years of connecting with other lovers of Professor Tolkien’s work I have enough costumes and accessories to warrant their own suitcase! (And my collection is modest in comparison with many others) But eventually I got all my bits and bobs collected and loaded into my “steed,” the sleek Narya (named for the red elven Ring of Fire). Once gassed up, with appropriate snacks for me on the seat nearby, I slowly made my way south. I left somewhat later than planned, but it did work out that I missed the worst of the traffic crossing into Kentucky and the rest was smooth sailing.

I arrived at the Village with a sigh of welcome relief – not because of any harrowing escapades on the Road – but for the sheer joy of returning to a place that holds a truly unique and special place in my heart. That I would be spending five days with friends, old and new – all like-minded comrades – was icing on the cake.

Once settled in -- or at lease familiar with -- my lodging for the week, I hastened to the Meadow View Barn to begin my adventure. I soon met up with Eowyn and Rosie Cotton, friends from a previous visit to the Shire, and then Everon Gamgee, Alasse Calmcacill, Bramblerose and Ames and many more people with whom I’ve become acquainted online. It really is quite amazing how social media can bring together people in positive ways.

This evening had no “theme” per se, but was a sort of meet and greet to ease us from the work-a-day world into the beloved hills and valleys of “our” Shire-home. A few introductory skits, familiar tunes from Marc Gunn and one of his newest musical collaborators, Samantha, delicious food and a few announcements rounded out the evening.

The walk back initially was solitary, though welcome! I’m a person who is both social and loves my “alone-time.” It is very dark in the village at night and the stars, therefore, twinkle much, much brighter. About half-way back I was offered a ride the rest of the way (thanks, Bramblerose & Co.!) and took it gladly, for there were many cars leaving and it just seemed the safest idea.

Back at the East Sisters Shop I took the time to unpack the car and air out all the gowns I would be wearing in the coming days. I also freshened up and changed, then headed over to the Dancing/Prancing Pony for the “after-hours” session. I chatted with a few people, listened to the incredible music that was to punctuate the entire week, had a sip of “apple pie” (YUM – thanks, Michael!) and then wended my way “home” to download the day’s pictures, do a little writing and meditate a bit on the awesome beginning of my sojourn in the Shire.